I have missed my blog.
I have missed my blogging friends.
I have thought about logging on so many times.
What would I even say?
Do I even remember my log-on?
If you have been through a trauma or a loss you have certainly heard some sort of the following...
You have to find your new normal.
What a fucking simplistic explanation to a complex problem.
It dumbs down the magnitude of the “new normal”.
It lightens the request of the task.
It implies that “normal” would currently be a word in your vocabulary.
And, still....it is sadly appropriate.
I’m not sure where to even start with an update- these past 7months have been _________.
Not meant for us
There really are no appropriate words to explain what this has felt like. I am consistently dumbfounded that thousands, hundreds of thousands, of families are doing this exact thing each day... and surviving.
That’s my biggest question,
Do you even know when you have reached your limit of handling it well?
3. Exponentially longer and more difficult chemo plan.
We are on phase #3.
I wish I could be one of those individuals who faces this pile of shit and learns to see the beauty in everything. I have not been able to get there and I am certain that I waste precious time/moments as I race 1000mph to finish all of our day to day tasks.
I miss every single thing about our life 8 months ago....