We have slowly clawed our way to where we want to be, where we NEED to be. We will always have to work purposefully as we fulfill our commitment to each other. But, we WILL continue to work for this. Every. Day.
Some days, minutes, weeks, hours, seem too disconnected for us to overcome. I write down all I can. Some words flow so very easily, the sadness dripping out into words like a fresh cut bleeds. It hurts to feel disconnected and alone. Some words, I just can't bear to say.
We reach a breaking point.
And, then it happens.
We reconfigure our commitment.
He stands tall as my loneliness melts away. Thankful and HAPPY that HE is my Owner. THANKFUL and happy that I am HIS sub. Weeks of renewed (and NEW) commitments lived with purpose.
I spent my day, a slave to my Owner. I dried him off after he showered and took my turn after.
He takes more than I knew I had.
He asks me if I can take more.
I reply in a whispered incoherent sob.
You have earned a day to relax.
He says as my skin glows more and more red hot with each strike.