When I am feeling disconnected and overwhelmed
I find calm in images of surrender I see in only in my own head.
I try to let them out and actually feel them.
There are times when I simply cannot.
I isolate myself.
I feel no comfort in being alone, yet I CANNOT release myself.
He is In this for the long haul. Just the thought of HIS words brings a calm surrender over my body. I see the surrender in my mind. I feel the tension leave my shoulders. I want to fall to my knees.
I want to.....
My mind screams out answers when HE asks What do you need? In that moment, I just. Cannot. Release. I hide all that is me. I scurry to clear up the pieces that look like me. And, I hide.
When is it too much to ask?