Now I remind myself that for this specific couple their dynamic it is in the religious context of men lead and women follow. This is not our context. I do not believe that I follow men. I follow ONE Man. Also important is that the husband is a bit of a dickhead. Nothing like my Man.
The specifics of that couple aside, I remembered thinking that you had to be crazy to be submissive.
Who I was.
I was a strong, proud, stubborn young girl.
I worked hard for everything I needed and wanted.
I wanted to be successful, in everything I did.
I was more interested in building physical strength than physical beauty.
I loved my Man unapologetically.
I was happy.
How did I ever become submissive/surrendered to my Man? We have over 20 very happy years together.
What changed? Why now? Were we destined to come to this all along?
Who I am now.
I am His strong and proud submissive/surrendered wife.
My personal pride takes a distant back seat to the pride I have in being His.
I can still be stubborn. I clear my head and return to HIM, surrendered. We are on the same side.
I work hard for everything WE want and need. I work harder to put His wants and needs first.
I still want to be successful in everything I do, but now it is only His opinion that counts.
I am strong AND beautiful. Inside and out. He deserves all of me and he sees me perfectly.
Who am I to say that His wife is not the most beautiful woman he has ever seen.
I love my Man passionately. I love my Man intensely. I love my Man unapologetically.
I love my Man with every ounce of submission and surrender in my heart.
I. AM. HAPPY.
Who my Man has always been.
He is loving. He is honorable. He is strong. He is funny.
He is the reason I feel beautiful. He is the reason I laugh out loud.
He is the reason I smile when I wake up and the reason I smile when I fall asleep.
He is every amazing moment in my life. He is every bit of strength I have when my world is upside down. He is every emotion that makes me feel alive.
I finally understand that my life only has meaning because my Man is in it. I think that it's time I thank Him.