The bitch is back.
PMS has taken on a new meaning in my life. I become irritable, shitty, ungrateful, and
(I imagine) not the least bit appealing to my Man. I/WE really need for this to change. This is something I have put great effort
into lately. I ordered some essential
oils to help calm my assholeness. I will
update after I give them a try. We also
talk a great deal about my ups and downs as they occur to hopefully ride them
out a little easier.
The other night I felt the darkness creeping back in. We went to bed and I was crabby. Laying in our bed felt icy and lonely. The hardest part about this for me is that I
want so badly to be touched and to be Dominated (in and out of the bedroom) but
I can’t control my irrational thoughts long enough to be open. My head clamors with the insistence that
everyone else is being too loud, too critical, and too irritating. My heart just cries out. I need release. The D/s side of us is new enough that my
husband is still testing the waters on when to push or how hard to push. I want to show him my commitment to being his
and I have tried to put my efforts
into better submission when I am hormonal.
Up until today I haven’t tried hard enough.
The morning started as a crabby continuation of the past
night’s emotions. Kids off to school,
husband watching TV, and I was sitting in the bathroom contemplating my
choices. I could continue my shitty
attitude that for some insane reason my head wants to stay in or I could
surrender like my husband and my heart know that I need to. I decide to surrender.
I came out of the bathroom with my shirt off and sat at his
feet. So, are you done being crabby?
His huge smile giving his happiness away. Yes,
I’m done. I lay in his lap and his
hand slides under me and to my heavy, achy breasts. My bra is still on as he pinches my left
nipple over and over, harder and longer each time. I sit up and turn to give him an easier
path. I close my eyes and accept the
release he gives me. He moves to the
right nipple next, pinching and pulling.
I am going to put my fist inside
you today. But you’re going to do the
work. You are going to bend over or do
whatever you need to do to get it in.
Now go get whatever you need.
I am lost in space. I
slowly come back down to earth and get up to retrieve a towel and the
lube. When I come back I am fully
naked. I kneel down and rub lube on his
hand and in and around my waiting pussy.
I ask him, Do you want me to bend
over or stand? He looks straight at
me You need to do whatever you have to do
to push it in. I. NEED. THIS.
I drop down on all fours with my pussy in line with his
waiting hand. I slowly crawl back into
him. I usually don’t get to control the
pace of this, it’s different. I needed
pain, I needed release. He allowed me to
have them both. Delicious moans of pain
and ecstasy are slowly coming out from deep within me. The feeling of my pussy stretching for HIM is
so intense. I push more and pause, truly
enjoying the bite of pain. The more I
loose myself the more relaxed I become and I can take more. The pain doesn't go away it just pushes me
further outside of my own body. It
becomes a dance. Push. Pause. Moan. Enjoy. Repeat. I am unable to measure time at this point. He patiently waits for me to start fucking
his hand in and out of my surrendered aching cunt. As I move he starts to rotate his hand a
little at a time to increase the pressure.
I have no idea how loud I am but I am no longer in control of my
body. From the moment I backed into his
hand my orgasm was just waiting. It is
now here. My muscles tighten all around
his hand and I cannot move. He takes
over and gives me more sensation.
I couldn't think straight if I tried. I want
you to crawl around and suck my dick but I don’t want you to let my hand out of
you. He has mentioned before how
much he loves to gives me tasks to serve him right after I have cum because my
body and mind cannot process very well and it takes every bit of submission I
have to get the task done. He IS a Dom-
I knew it! Yes...Yes... I say to him and I slowly crawl to the side so that I am parallel
to his body and my mouth is in line with his enormously stiff cock. I take him in my mouth and have to concentrate
on moving and sucking, hand in my pussy and cock in my mouth. He starts to pump in and out of me and my
brain short circuits. The head of his cock is past my throat and little
sounds escape as I yell out my release. It
won’t stop. I cum over and over. I can feel wetness drip down past my
clit. Oh holy fuck. I start to drip onto my bent leg below. OH HOLY FUCK!
I hear him moan, a strained orgasm filled moan. His hot cum fills my mouth and I swallow out
of instinct. I am not coherent enough to
savor him. I am as light as air and a heavy swollen orgasm all at once. It makes no sense, I am sure, but it was delightful. He slid his hand out from my grateful pussy and I lifted my mouth off his terrific cock. Thank you I said as I laid my head on him and we both drifted off for a bit to recover.
OH WOW! OH WOW! That was intensely HAWT! ... but hey maybe you found the cure for PMS???
ReplyDelete*runs off to take a cold shower* PHEW!!
I was going to call the post "The cure for PMS..." but I figured I shouldn't make a medical claim =) -Pearl
DeletePMS is the worst. Sounds like you found a great (and very hot) way to turn things around!
ReplyDeleteHe may be on to something!! -Pearl
Deletewhoooweeee wow. i'm glad that since i got on the pill and on to this D/s journey, PMS is less and less common around my place. And when i DO get pissy BIKSS warns me that i'm letting it get the better of me. or sometimes when i'm emotional and weepy he holds me and tells me it'll be gone soon enough.
ReplyDeletelooks like you found a good way to deal with it tho :)
Sounds like you have it covered pretty good too! Any way to get rid of PMS is good in my book. -Pearl
DeleteOhhh look at you! That's exactly what you should have done. And look at the reward you got for it!
ReplyDeleteHotness.
It's so easy to let our attitudes go all awry, but it's easier not to when you remember who exactly your attitude is aimed at, and that he (well, mine anyway) never actually deserves that kind of attitude. When I start to feel irritable (and I don't have anything like a cycle to make me feel that way, it's usually just external events) then I try to go right out of my way to be nicer, more submissive, rather than to let the irritation take hold and ruin our time together.
Looks like you worked that out on your own though. :)
I was so excited that my surrender was rewarded so quickly this time. I'm not sure I would have felt the importance of choosing to submit/surrender (when you REALLY don't want to) if he wasn't receptive to my change in attitude. It was such a needed release for me too. -Pearl
DeleteHoooooly HELL! *fans self*
ReplyDeleteI get this so much, I have to push myself through sometimes too, and yes it's ALWAYS worth it. Sometimes I do wonder if I wish he would come and get me and drag me to him by the hair, figuratively and literally, but really I'm incredibly grateful he waits and lets me come to him as soon as I can. Or, he sits back and makes me do all the work, whichever way you want to look at it, either way he know's what he's doing when he's managing me, that's for sure!
That backing on to his fist thing - hot as hell. He keeps telling me he's going to fist me one day, but it still scares the crap out of me. Yes I know his fist is small that a baby's head (and I've had seven vaginal births) but the idea of it still seems impossibly large. He's gradually worked me up over the last couple of years and now I can not only tolerate four to six of his fingers at a time, but I'm getting to the point of enjoying it - not enjoying it because I hate it, but actually enjoying it, even want it...
So hopefully one day!
Sometimes I half expect him to caveman hair drag me too! I can just be a shithead. Conina had it right, it ruins our time together when I get like that.
DeleteAs for backing into him- he has never had me do that and I agree....it was HOT! He truly gave me exactly what I needed and I din't think that I could even find the right words to write on how out of my mind I felt.
As for fisting in general....I absolutely recommend it! It feels like such a strong moment of submission for me. My job is to control/relax my body enough to accept him. Maybe I will write a post on it soon but my first Gspot orgasm and cumming (squirting- wish there was a different word for that!) occurred through fisting. Opened a WHOLE new world for us.
-Pearl
oooo, I look forward to you writing more about it some time then!
DeleteIntense and erotically written... I'm glad Conina B mentioned your blog...
ReplyDeletelove and sex
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Thank you so much! I am very thankful to Conina as well, she gave me the courage start this blog. Enjoy!! -Pearl
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